On the Road Again...

Ok, I promise, I am ACTUALLY going to visit Granite at his trainer's after work today. I mean it this time! I am armed with my camera and camera phone and D is coming with me, so hopefully I will have some pictures and a nice post about his progress to share with you tomorrow.

I spent some time at the Porter farm yesterday which was really nice. I had dinner with them and visited with Karma for the first time in a really long time. I have been feeling about her like I have felt about some boyfriends in the past. I often remain friends with ex boyfriends because in my opinion if you truly loved them, you always will in a way the type of love just shifts as the individuals grow. I promise, hang with me, I am getting to the point... Anyway. When I first go through one of these breakups (and I am a pro, I go through them often) I need some space. Pretty much no contact for a month or two so I can regain my Independence and not dwell on what I lost when losing the relationship. After that, I can usually spend time with the particular ex as friends and not have those feelings of loss or jealousy etc... So, this is how I was feeling about Karma. I guess it was about 3 weeks ago when I decided to return her to her previous owner and despite an open invitation to ride her or spend time with her, I have kept my distance and haven't even groomed her or went out to her pasture to visit although I am at the farm daily to drop off and pick up the dog. Yesterday I petted her for the first time in a while. It was bitter sweet. I had missed her, but had not allowed myself to dwell on it. I think what may hurt worse is knowing that others are riding her and giving lessons with her. I feel like I know her better and that they won't do her justice... but I also know that it is only my Ego and 'Only Child Syndrome' speaking. So I have to swallow it and slowly, I hope to spend more time with Karma as 'friends' instead of 'lovers' as I have done successfully with so many ex flames...

Theres my giant analogy for the day. Thanks for dealing with me. I promise pictures of Granite and stories of what I hope will be success and growth tomorrow. He moves back to Greensboro and into his new digs next week. Official date to come...