Tuesday, July 7, 2009

On the Road Again...

Ok, I promise, I am ACTUALLY going to visit Granite at his trainer's after work today. I mean it this time! I am armed with my camera and camera phone and D is coming with me, so hopefully I will have some pictures and a nice post about his progress to share with you tomorrow.

I spent some time at the Porter farm yesterday which was really nice. I had dinner with them and visited with Karma for the first time in a really long time. I have been feeling about her like I have felt about some boyfriends in the past. I often remain friends with ex boyfriends because in my opinion if you truly loved them, you always will in a way the type of love just shifts as the individuals grow. I promise, hang with me, I am getting to the point... Anyway. When I first go through one of these breakups (and I am a pro, I go through them often) I need some space. Pretty much no contact for a month or two so I can regain my Independence and not dwell on what I lost when losing the relationship. After that, I can usually spend time with the particular ex as friends and not have those feelings of loss or jealousy etc... So, this is how I was feeling about Karma. I guess it was about 3 weeks ago when I decided to return her to her previous owner and despite an open invitation to ride her or spend time with her, I have kept my distance and haven't even groomed her or went out to her pasture to visit although I am at the farm daily to drop off and pick up the dog. Yesterday I petted her for the first time in a while. It was bitter sweet. I had missed her, but had not allowed myself to dwell on it. I think what may hurt worse is knowing that others are riding her and giving lessons with her. I feel like I know her better and that they won't do her justice... but I also know that it is only my Ego and 'Only Child Syndrome' speaking. So I have to swallow it and slowly, I hope to spend more time with Karma as 'friends' instead of 'lovers' as I have done successfully with so many ex flames...

Theres my giant analogy for the day. Thanks for dealing with me. I promise pictures of Granite and stories of what I hope will be success and growth tomorrow. He moves back to Greensboro and into his new digs next week. Official date to come...


  1. Hi, just found your blog and I look forward to following it as I am soon to be in graduate school and I am going to attempt to keep a horse at the same time as well. I also have an aussie cross dog that is the worst dog ever. Very spooky! Her name is Stella though we often refer to her as B.

  2. WOW! Sounds like we have a lot in common! Its not easy doing the grad school thing and keeping the critters but its possible! I only have 4 hours left of class so, I am proof. What is your aussie crossed with? Mine is a little cupcake baked by the devil, but I love her dearly!

  3. I think she is a Catahoula Leopard Cross mixed with some hell hound :) Good luck on finishing graduate school you must be stoked.